Deborah James Is Devastated To See Herself Losing Her Life : Deborah James is fighting the greatest enemy of her life, bowel cancer. In addition to that, she also has issues accepting this disease. It’s not easy for her to see herself in this situation.
“Dying is hard, and I have been consumed by anger this week and have been a real b***h.”, Deborah said.
“I keep shouting at people and pushing them away, being angry at what’s happening to me. I don’t want to die, and I don’t want my friends to see me like this. I don’t want my friends to remember me this way.”
She said that she tried a lot and is giving her best, but it’s hard for her to see herself in this situation.
Deborah James stated, “I’m still doing this my way, and I’m frustrated with my situation because I don’t want to die. I don’t think I will accept it, as I was given days to a week to live when I left the hospital. But I’m still here, and I don’t believe that it’s happening because It all feels like a horrible joke.”
A person feels devastated to see the demise of his own body. Deborah continued, “I was fit and healthy, even for most of the time with cancer. So now, it’s heartbreaking to see me like this”
Deborah James About Death
The campaigner, 40, was diagnosed with bowel cancer in 2016 and documented her illness experiences on social media. She revealed that she has been shouting and pushing people away in the weeks since moving to end-of-life care.
In an unfortunate interview with the Sun, she called the death “life’s last taboo.”. James also said that she had decided to spend time with only family and not see her close friends.
The mother of two had stopped treatment, which she announced a month ago. She would now receive end-of-life care at her parents’ home in Woking, Surrey.
After she left the hospital, she was given days to a week. The doctors told her that there was nothing more to be done to treat her cancer.
She has her goals to help others and spend time with family. James thinks a lot about death and all the things that follow it.
She added, “There’s no blueprint to how you’re going to feel when you’re dying; all the emotions change, second by second, hour by hour. I am scared because I don’t know what to expect, and I am 40, so it’s heartbreaking to know what I am leaving behind.
“The hardest part is that nobody talks about death. We don’t know what happens or how we’re meant to navigate it. Death is life’s last taboo, and I hope that I might bring some comfort to others by talking about it a bit. People might look at me and say, just spend some with your family. They might ask why I am doing it —the T-shirts, the book launch, and raising money for my BowelBabe Fund.
“The truth is that it’s my purpose in my final days. It’s amazing to do something with a deadline — the final one. My family is all a part of this with me, and we are doing it our way.”
Deborah James is Annoyed!
James has admitted that she is “consumed by anger” and added that “dying is hard. She remains at the end of her life at her parents’ home.
In the interview, she also admitted that she keeps shouting and pushing people away. Further, she sadly confessed that she didn’t want to die, heartbreaking.
She is an incredible campaigner and revealed in her goodbye post on Instagram that she was placed into end-of-life care. The post was published in May, and it was heartbreaking to see her losing the most critical battle.
James Purpose In Her Last Days
Since her last goodbye on Instagram, she has raised more than £6 million for Cancer Research. She has also launched a T-shirt line with The Style. Prince William visited her, and she continued to make memories with her family.
James received a damehood from the Duke of Cambridge last month. She has raised more than £6.6m for Cancer Research UK, Bowel Cancer UK, and the Royal Marsden Cancer Charity through her Bowelbabe fund.
The incredible campaigner set herself an initial target of £250,000 and received a donation from a massive audience.
She says that she still finds joy in doing things such as cooking for her family even though she no longer eats much. She also finds happiness in getting dressed and putting on makeup each morning. One of her favorite things to do is with her daughter Eloise 12, and son Hugo, 14. They read letters from her supporters and well-wishers.
Deborah said about her purpose that she finds happiness in doing these things in her final days.
“They might question why I am doing all this like the book launch, raising money for my BowelBabe Fund, and the T-shirts. It gives me purpose in my final days, and It’s amazing what you can do with a deadline — the final one. My family is all a part of this with me, and we’re doing it our way.”
Facing death is not an easy task, and Deborah James fought the menace with great courage. She even did shows while being sick, but now her condition is severely critical. She is discharged from the hospital and kept in end-of-life care at her parents’ home.
But she is doing incredible work in her last days by collecting donations for bowel cancer research.
Deborah James said, “I’m scared because I don’t know what to expect, and It’s a scary thing to face. I’m only 40, and it’s extremely heartbreaking to know what I am leaving behind. The hardest part is that no one talks about death, and we don’t really know what happens or how we’re meant to navigate it.
“Death is life’s last taboo, and I hope that I might bring some comfort to other people by talking about it a bit.”